Hard

This is hard.  I really need this outlet.  Being able to write things down like this is helpful.  However, the last thing I want to do is write something and have it be taken the wrong way.  Especially by my family.  That is why I have not posted more recently and why I am hesitant to post again.  I have never been more scared about doing anything (except maybe leaving on my mission) as I have been about starting this "project".

I need to set it straight, I guess.  I don't want to offend anyone.  Yet, at the same time, I don't want to feel like I can't express my feelings about things/feelings that are part of my past that still shape my future. Does that make sense?  I mean, I am entitled to FEEL a certain way.  Am I not?  It is how I react to those feelings that defines me, right?  I am trying to be mature about this.  This is NOT my "passive-aggressive" way of communicating. This is my way of helping myself get PAST a few things that seem to be holding me back.  That's all it is.  It is not my way of calling anyone out, it is not intended to be a negative regurgitation of all my woes, it is simply putting my feelings on "paper".

So, to any of my dear family and friends who may read this.  I love you.  I love you as big as the world.  Please, love me enough to try to understand what this is doing for me.  Love me enough to call me and talk to me about something you may disagree with, rather than be angry with me about it.  Love me enough to support me.  Thanks.

All my LOVE
Vi